Insecurities creeping through

I know that after having a baby it takes a while to lose the baby weight. I was doing well with losing and then lost the energy to continue trying. My new motivation is my insecurities. I don't feel hot or sexy. I feel like I would like to just like to get surgery but can't afford that option.
I hate that he can look at other women and comment on their appearance. He doesn't see how this hurts me. I can read the words as he compliments and inquires about the other women. I shouldn't worry they say, he comes home to you. What if he isn't attracted to me? He says he is and appears interested but something is different. Maybe it's all in my head and maybe not.
ARG!
Today is a really bad day and Facebook is the devil. Ugh!